The Way to Permanent Faith

“We will be scattered, not into service, but into the emptiness of our lives where we will see ruin and barrenness, to know what internal death to God’s blessings mean. Are we prepared for this? It is certainly not of our choosing, but God engineers our circumstances to take us there. Until we have been through that experience, our faith is sustained only by feelings and by blessings. But once we get there, no matter where God may place us or what inner emptiness we experience, we can praise God that all is well. That is what is meant by faith being exercised in the realities of life… Do we not see God at work in our circumstances? Dark times are allowed and come to us through the sovereignty of God. Are we prepared to let God do what He wants with us? Are we prepared to be separated from the outward, evident blessings from God? Until Jesus Christ is truly our Lord, we each have goals of our own which we serve. Our faith is real, but it is not yet permanent. And God is never in a hurry. If we are willing to wait, we will see God pointing out that we have been interested only in His blessings, instead of in God Himself… Unyielding spiritual fortitude is what we need” – Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest

It’s true. My interest has been solely focused on the betterment of my circumstances, hoping and praying for blessings so my life can get right again and yet I’ve been stripped of everything so that my heart and mind can again be rearranged, refined, stretched, and altered. My circumstances matter little. Continue reading “The Way to Permanent Faith” »

Death with no Funeral

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable” – C.S. Lewis

That was my life before her: lonely and selfish, wrapped in hobbies and little luxuries, safe and secure. Continue reading “Death with no Funeral” »