The road has taught me something: that there’s nothing more dangerous to the adventurous spirit than a secure future, a clear direction and a solid life plan..
Yet sometimes that’s all I’m longing for.. but I quickly remind myself… no, no it’s not! I could never see myself just having gone to school to just get a job with some random company, make money, buy a home, get settled… it’s just not for me, yet it’s what surrounds me. So many of my friends and people I know, just going through the motions, the proper steps in what their “supposed to do” entering into “reality” with house payments, marriages, children… although this really is wonderful for some people, for me it’s a nightmare.. and certainly not the direction I’m heading in.
No, for me, I want my life to be my project, my art, what I absolutely love and am good at and want to always do. People see retirement, I see working doing what you love until it’s time to move on to eternity (to then continue doing things you love but even more creatively). There’s nothing at all wrong with the ‘traditional’ American goal, I just don’t see myself fitting inside that box. I surely am not minding working for someone or something but why not start my own endeavor, my own project, become my own boss. Why suppress the creativity, why not give it a shot and see what happens?
So this is why in the midst of working, I’m starting my own work. As a journalist, it’s one thing to rep The New York Times, The Huffington Post and another to rep what’s yours, what you yourself created and set into motion. Thus, Infinity News Network (the ficition series that you can read on this blog) has taken the first steps in coming to life. I’m so in love with the idea and it’s all coming together even better than I expected. It’s broad and yet narrow and focused enough to stand out and build a quick online footprint and reputation with the right marketing and connections. There are so many very near future plans that my good friend Mark and I have for this incredible project that very well could essentially become our full-time jobs. So so much I could say about this but that will be a post in itself..
I would have never foresaw this project but there it was, exactly what I always wanted, my fiction coming to life.. quite literally.
It only seems appropriate to take the road and open the door in life marked: Infinity
One thing I love about my life is not knowing where I’ll be, what city I’ll end up in or end up trying out, who I’ll meet or where exactly I’ll end up. A few months or a year from now I could go one place to lead me to another. The good thing is, for now, this project is mobile and can travel with me. Whether that will be to Los Angeles for graduate school and screenwriting or eventually to Washington DC to set up Infinity’s headquarters. There is a general direction, but nothing is solidified or totally certain.. and as much as that worries me I don’t think I would be happy if it were.
“It should not be denied… that being footloose has always exhilarated us. It is associated in our minds with escape from history and oppression and law and irksome obligations, with absolute freedom,” – Wallace Stegner, The American West as a Living Space
There’s too much of this world to see, experience, be a part of and people to meet to simply get settled, situated and fixed in one place in one wearisome job. The life of an uncertain nomad becomes more adventurous and appealing than safe, boring security.