Jesus, I want to be molded into the man you want me to be for my future wife.  I want to be worthy of her waiting and affection.  I want my relationship with You to draw her toward me, and our relationship draw from and point toward You.  Jesus, something has come over me, and I know it’s going to be hard but it’s time to wipe the slate clean today, to rise up out of this griminess that’s been holding me down and take hold of all You have for me.  Today is the day that I start believing that everything I ever wanted is on its way, maybe…